i woke up at 122 pounds this morning. i did a happy dance in my bathroom.
and then i ruined it.
i came home from school and binged my ass off. three bags of chips, a snickers, a bowl of soup, two swiss cheese sandwiches, half a bowl of cereal, and a pepsi. of course, my initial reaction was to purge.
oppps. that didn't work.
i was on my knees in front of the toilet with my fingers in my throat for about half an hour. the pepsi came back up & a little bit of the cereal, and that's it. i freaked the fuck out and called my very best ana friend, nikki (http://letters-from-ana.blogspot.com/). she helped calm me down and made me feel positive about our fast tomorrow. i still can't believe i binged after only a few days. fuuuuck. bad start. bad bad bad start.
but, tomorrow's a new day. i'm not eating anything tomorrow. in fact, i might just do a water fast for the next two days. lord knows i'm going to need it when i wake up in the morning and look at the numbers on the scale.
sigh. i'm scared to see what the scale says tomorrow. i hope you guys are doing better than i am. think thin, stay strong. love you guys<3