didn't manage to get through the day food-free. but i was sub 300 cals, so i'm not going to beat myself up just yet. stayin' posi. and as of this morning, i am 125 lbs. so i AM losing, even if it is only a mere pound.
and my pure hatred for my mother is fueling me now. i'm so fucking sick of her bullshit. so i'm going to starve my anger away. fuck fighting with her. fuck confronting her about her sick and twisted thought process. fuck that. i'll just starve myself until i can't feel anymore; until there's nothing left of me to give a shit.