Tuesday, February 8, 2011

i fucking hate my fat fucking self.

U G H. i tried to eat normally. for mike. i was going to make things right, and eat without throwing up. got on the scale a few minutes ago, 119. four pounds after two days of eating normal? fuck that. i'm never eating normally again. fuck that.

now its going to take forever for those two pounds to come off. fuckkkkkkkkkk. i fucking hate myself. so much. not eating for the rest of the week. idgaf if mike gets pissed. im getting under 115 again before i even touch anything besides water. fuck it fuck it fuck it. food can suck it. i don't need it. i'll live on celery if i absolutely have to eat. fuck.

dsijrtriodftgouidhuiogdf. two fucking pounds. i can't even believe that shit. im so pissed off.
fdkgjlflkgjf ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

3 comments:

  1. "fuck it. fuck it. food can suck it." it rhymes! that's gonna be my mantra this week. kick some ass, girl! you'll lose those 2 pesky lbs in no time!

    stay strong, think thin, live ana
    xoxoNikkioxox

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  2. that just happened to me! it took me literally a week to drop 3 or so pounds, and i was so close to 160 (.5lbs off) and then i went to a goddamn superbowl party where i had some cheese dip and guacamole. those were the only two things i ate, and i fucking gained 3.7 lbs. i have no idea how that happened.

    it happens to all of us. stay strong and you can loose it again :]

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  3. im sure a lot of that is water weight and youll drop it quickly.

    stay strong. <3

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