Down this week.

The more depressed I am, the easier it becomes to not eat. Which is good because these days I don't even remember what happiness feels like. Its not even really a struggle to starve anymore, the struggle happens on eat days. Like, no matter how hungry I get at a time, every look towards food disgusts me beyond reason. I suppose that's good.

New Years was a lot of things. I got drunk off my ass, drinking I don't even know how many calories. But trying to function normally when I got home had to have burned off at least half of them. If not, whatever. I hadn't eaten anything for four days before that so I'm not too worried.

Past two days sucked. They were eat-days & I was at a friend's house. Blah. But it was mostly meat and being vegetarian, I could only eat a little of what was available. So it could have been worse.

New Years Resolutions?
I am currently xxx pounds (still too much to say on here, ha)
By June of 2010, I'll be 98.






Thinspiration:)