i've been restricting; not really starving but not really eating either and i'm currently at 124 lbs. i'm hoping to get to 108 by christmas. my red bracelet is back on and i'm in this for the long run. with all the parental drama going on, no one pays attention to whether or not i'm eating so this all works out perfectly. and my boyfriend is like the biggest thinspiration i've ever had. he's so fucking tiny and it motivates the shit out of me. any time i feel weak and hungry, i simply think of him and do some situps. its going to work this time, i can feel it. i'm getting back to my lw and no one can fucking stop me.
i'm going to get thin or die trying.